we all fear the unknown. to some extent or another.
right now the thing that is completely occupying my mind/life is my pregnancy.
i went in this week for an ultrasound because i was measuring big.
the ultrasound proves that i am 36 weeks and 4 days pregnant.
the ultrasound also showed that my baby is in the breech position. ugh.
this i have feared for many reasons, but mostly because i really don't want to have a c-section.
i've always had normal vaginal births. for the most part they have been pleasant, albeit a little quick...but that's good too, isn't it?
now i have a few things to consider.
option 1: they can try to turn him, externally. painful? yes. a bit risky? yes. a hospital procedure? yes. epidural involved? yes.
option 2: i opt for a c-section. unknown to me? yes. scary? yes. horrendous recovery time? yes.
option 3: i deliver him breech. now i'm not entirely clear as to whether this option will still be on the table in 2 more weeks because of the breech presentation. in some cases or positions, they will not let you deliver breech vaginally. it's too risky to mom and baby. mostly baby.
so i've got some things to consider, ponder and pray about. it's all a bit scary to me. mostly because of the unknown. it's not familiar. of course the most important thing is the health and safety of the baby, so my decision will be based on that.
but still.....it's fear of the unknown that's kind of consuming me.