i have been going back and forth on whether to post this. but, as i have said before, i want this blog to be a record of our lives (among other things).
a few weeks ago, stephan found out that he would be laid off on 12/12. i think i have been in complete denial over the whole thing. it stinks. truly. no severence package, no holiday turkey, nothing. i know it's happening all over to lots of people, but when it happens to your family, of course the whole experience is intensified. right before christmas. ugh. he has been looking diligently for a job, but so are many other people and jobs are few and far between. i have been asking myself why. why so many things have happened over the past six months. i think part of the reason is to strengthen our/my faith. i have been praying now more than ever and turning completely to Heavenly Father. i don't know what else to do. i know that there is purpose in this. i know it is part of the plan. somehow, there is a reason. i am so totally thankful for my many blessings, and i can't remember being more thankful than at this time of trial. we are all healthy. i have an amazing marriage to a wonderful man. i have three awesome children that teach me daily to appreciate the simple things. we have a home. we have food, heat, running water, a washer and dryer. we live in a great country where we enjoy freedom - everyday. we have the best extended family. i have great friends that are ALWAYS there for me! it is christmastime, and the world is a joyous place to be right now. but more than all of that, i am so thankful for my Savior, Jesus Christ. i am thankful for His Atonement. i feel His love in my life, and i know that we are going to be taken care of.